{"id":3554,"date":"2011-04-05T17:43:25","date_gmt":"2011-04-05T12:43:25","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kunjeshwari.com\/sweetblog\/?p=3554"},"modified":"2011-04-05T20:49:43","modified_gmt":"2011-04-05T15:49:43","slug":"an-appeal-from-the-author-part-one","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kunjeshwari.com\/sweetblog\/sweet_books\/sri-bishnupriya-in-gambheera\/an-appeal-from-the-author-part-one\/","title":{"rendered":"An appeal From the Author"},"content":{"rendered":"

Sri Sri Bishnupriy\u0101-Gour\u0101ngou Jayatah<\/strong><\/h2>\n


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\u0101tma shodhib\u0101r tore duhs\u0101has koinu,<\/span><\/strong><\/h3>\n

leel\u0101-sindhur ek bindu sparshite n\u0101rinu. <\/span><\/strong><\/h3>\n

(Adwaita Prak\u0101sh, 22nd<\/sup> Chapter)<\/span><\/strong><\/h3>\n

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I was so impudent as to seek self-realization; however I could not touch even one drop from the ocean of the Divine pastimes.<\/span><\/p>\n

Sri Sri Bishnupriy\u0101 Devi love-sports on the bosom of Goursundar, is the daughter of Sri San\u0101tan and she is more than inconceivable. She is unknown to the Vedic scriptures. Her pastimes in the Mah\u0101gambheer\u0101 of Nadia are like an ocean that is fathomless and boundless. To dive into this ocean and bring out the priceless leel\u0101-gems is nothing short of cheekiness on my part. Yet it is true that the Lord and Priy\u0101ji themselves have given me this inspiration. Now why did they give such an arrogant brainwave to a moron, Bhajan-s\u0101dhan-less, beast-in-human-form, insignificant creature like myself? This question constantly plagues me.\u00a0 From time to time it arises in my sinful filthy mind and pricks me like a thorn. I admit it is very hurting indeed.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

It happened like this. I cannot tell a lie that, \u201cOne day, the desire for self-reformation spontaneously arose in my heart\u201d; for I must confess that I am at best a hypocrite and atheist. Such lofty desire that calls for high level spiritual treatment cannot possibly arise in my heart, since I am a beast-in-human-form.\u00a0 I am such a criminal\u00a0 that even if, by the causeless mercy of Sri Gurudev and Sri Gour\u0101nga, such a desire ever arises in my heart, I will not be so fortunate as to realize that I have such a Bhakti-desire.\u00a0 Please do not think that I am saying all this out of humility, since I do not possess the humility that is an adornment for the Vaishnavs. Reason? Very simple. I am not a Vaishnav. I do not have the right to call myself one.\u00a0 My sinful self has only one shelter, and that is the foot-dust of the good Vaishnavs.\u00a0 Yet I do harbor a daring notion that Sri Nit\u0101ich\u0101nd, who is the munificent Lord of my family, catches my hair at times, and kicks me mercifully with those most auspicious feet that he uses to pound the atheists. He does this although I am a blot on my family and humanity. His powerful kicks force me to sometimes write a few crooked lines about Sri Bishnupriy\u0101-Gour\u0101nga.\u00a0 The scriptural dictum \u201cmurkhasya l\u0101thyoushadham\u201d \u2013 \u201cbeating with a rod is the only medicine for an idiot\u201d \u2013 has some effect on me. Out of the fear of Lord Sri Nity\u0101nanda in the garb of \u201cP\u0101khanda-dalan<\/span>[1]<\/span><\/span><\/a>\u201dif I write something, then the credit goes to my anger-free, supremely blissful Avadhut Sri Nit\u0101ich\u0101nd\u2019s merciful glance. His glance is so glorious, his name is so purifying, so wondrous, so magnificent that it can make a worthless being like me cough up these words. Definitely no credit goes to me.<\/span><\/p>\n

Since ages I have been nursing foolish arrogance in my heart. This arrogance is very dear to me. Result? Pure ignorance and lack of scriptural knowledge constantly burns deep down in my heart. Since birth I have been adverse towards the cattle and the devotees, served only the people in position, have wallowed in the wealth got from such service, and a mercenary materialistic person. I know this very well. I doubt whether I have ever had the good fortune to hear Bhakti-sh\u0101stras from the lips of devotees, Gurudev or any \u0100ch\u0101rya \u2013 my life has been so hateful. My family-Deity, the Vaishnavs, the devat\u0101s, and Sri Gurudev who is the decider of my fate, have just not written the association of pure devotees in my luck. Yes, they have definitely given me the opportunity of residing in Sridh\u0101m Vrind\u0101ban for some time; although this was a supremely rare stroke of luck, unfortunately I could not give it adequate respect and importance, and left the Holy Land.<\/span><\/p>\n

After tremendous slogging for almost twenty five years I have managed to write some rubbish about Sri Bishnupriy\u0101-Gour\u0101nga. This too has been possible by the immense krip\u0101 of Sri Guru Mah\u0101r\u0101j and the good Vaishnavs. I know very well that these writings are not \u2013 and will not – be palatable to the pure Vaishnavs who are learned in the scriptures and are experts in Bhajan. Nevertheless we do drink the well-water in which Lord Sri Sh\u0101lagr\u0101m has bathed, revering it as Charan\u0101mrit, do we not? In the same manner, although my prose and poems are most crooked, fraught with mistakes, extremely poor-quality, devoid of any style or grace \u2013 it is true \u2013 yet, this composition is in some way connected with Sri Gour\u0101nga-leel\u0101 \u2013 thinking like this, if the most magnanimous Gour-bhaktas and scholarly Vaishnavs relish it, I firmly believe that they will find pleasure<\/span>[2]<\/span><\/span><\/a>.<\/span><\/p>\n

I have committed countless mistakes and offences while publishing various books and journals \u2013 for instance – a holy Vaishnav magazine for the long period of ten years (incidentally this magazine was of first class quality), Sri Gour\u0101nga Mah\u0101bh\u0101rat, some thirty to forty books on the divine pastimes of Sri Gour\u0101nga Mah\u0101prabhu, and the most special of all \u2013 my last book \u201cSri Bishnupriy\u0101 in Gambheer\u0101\u201d. This also proves my immense shamelessness. I have numerous relatives, friends, disciples, grand-disciples, great grand-disciples and followers, yet I did not get any help from anybody. Whatever Sri Guru-Gour\u0101nga empowers me to write for the first time, it goes directly to the press. What can I do? It is my bad luck that I could not find anybody who would do the editing to my liking. Neither could I find such a person nor did I have the time to do this important sev\u0101 myself. For more than twenty two years I have had to do the proofreading also. As a result I have accepted all the shortcomings, mistakes and faults as ornaments on my body. They are my treasure. I bow my head at the feet of all devotees and openly beg forgiveness from the merciful readers for all my offences and faults. I do not seek any assistance from anybody \u2013 it is my major drawback \u2013 and I admit it unhesitatingly.\u00a0 However if on my sorry state arouses pity in someone, and on his own he offers some help, and then I become his servant forever.<\/span><\/p>\n

I am now almost sixty nine years. Long hours of proof reading have diminished my eyesight. One eye does not have any sight. I have had this defect since birth.\u00a0 Yet, surprisingly no one can make out this flaw, and no one knows about it. My job was one of great responsibility, and I had to often travel here and there. Even after retirement from the Government service I traveled for eleven years to preach Sri Gour\u0101nga Mah\u0101prabhu\u2019s message. Due to constant traveling and lack of time, lack of facilities, I had to accomplish the important sev\u0101 of proofreading, sometimes in the train, and at other times in the boat. As a result, it is natural that there are so many mistakes. I admit I am entirely responsible for all of them.<\/span><\/p>\n

In this text, many verses have been repeated. I am the culprit to be blamed for such repetition. However, in Bhakti-sh\u0101stras such repetition is not unforgiveable, (for profound bh\u0101v results in such repetitions). Ordinary critics and mundane readers may certainly consider this an irritating flaw. This text has not been written for them anyway and they may avoid reading it.<\/span><\/p>\n

In the end, I have a prayer at the lotus feet of all Gour-bhaktas. You are the dear ones of my Lord who never sees any flaw in anybody. I am unworthy in all respects; I am devoid of scriptural knowledge, and entirely a fool. Please forgive this old sinner for all his faults and bless him by offering him your foot dust.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201c(sarba) baishnaber pade mor ei nibedan,<\/span><\/p>\n

krip\u0101 kori math shobe deho shricharan.<\/span><\/p>\n

shrot\u0101 shobe p\u0101dodake shuddha koro mon,<\/span><\/p>\n

p\u0101thak-p\u0101thik\u0101 d\u0101o charane sharan.<\/span><\/p>\n

adhik\u0101ri noi mui koron porom\u0101d,<\/span><\/p>\n

priy\u0101ji charit likhi mone bodo sh\u0101dh.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u0101tma shodhib\u0101r tore duhs\u0101has koinu,<\/span><\/p>\n

leel\u0101 sindhur ek bindu sparshite n\u0101rinu.<\/span><\/p>\n

d\u0101s harid\u0101s t\u0101r charane doliy\u0101,<\/span><\/p>\n

(se) more jeno antak\u0101le gour\u0101nga boliy\u0101.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

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Meaning \u2013 I have a single request at the lotus feet of all Vaishnavs that they may be pleased to mercifully place their holy feet on my head. All audience may give me their foot-wash and thus purify my heart. All readers give me shelter at their feet. In spite of being unqualified I am committing the mistake of writing this text because I have a great desire to narrate the biography of Priy\u0101ji. It is audacity on my part to try for self-realization; nevertheless I admit that I have not been able to touch a single drop from the ocean of Divine Pastimes. This servant \u201cHarid\u0101s\u201d beseeches that he may always remain at the lotus feet of Sri Priy\u0101ji and crying out \u201cH\u0101 Gour\u0101nga\u201d he may breathe his last.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Most fallen and insignificant Harid\u0101s Gosw\u0101mi .
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[1]<\/span><\/span><\/a> The One who pounds the atheists<\/span><\/p>\n

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\u201cmam\u0101smin sandarbhe yadapi kavit\u0101 n\u0101lalit\u0101<\/span><\/p>\n

mudam dh\u0101syantyasy\u0101 tadapi harigandh\u0101d budhagan\u0101h,<\/span><\/p>\n

apah sh\u0101lagr\u0101plavana-garimodg\u0101ra saras\u0101h,<\/span><\/p>\n

syaadheeh ko v\u0101 koupeerapi namitamurddh\u0101 na pibati?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

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