In some editions, we find the word ‘ras-sheetala-âbhyam’ instead of ‘vipul-âyata-âbhyâm.’ Srila Bhatta Goswâmipâd has accepted ‘ras-sheetala-âbhyam’ and has explained it as –
“When will He glance at us with His soothing and loving eyes?” We may say, “Sri Krishna will glance at you when you will be in distress.” To this, the poet replies, “Is there any more distressful condition than not being able to see Him?”
Srila Vishwanâth Chakravartipâd has described the state of a loving devotee suffering in viraha:
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What happens when a devotee feels viraha? |
“This wonderful love is very strange indeed. It is full of contradictions. It arises in the heart of a devotee and when it increases slightly, it fills him with a tremendous longing for ‘Sri Bhagavat-sâkshâtkâr’.
This longing scorches his heart so much that the sphurti of Sri Bhagavân’s beauty and sweet pastimes cannot satisfy him any more.”
In this stage, his near and dear ones appear to him as a dark and dry well. He finds his home as terrible as a thorny forest. Whenever he eats, he feels as if someone is beating him. If honest people praise him, he feels as if a snake has bitten him. He finds his daily duties as gruesome as death and he cannot carry the weight of his body. When his well-wishers console him, he thinks they are pouring poison.
He always remains awake lamenting profusely. Even if he gets a little sleep, he feels as if it were killing him. He thinks the fact that he is still alive is a proof that Sri Bhagavân has rejected him. He feels his life as worthless as repeatedly fried corn, so much so, that earlier what he used to desire so badly (Divine prem) now appears greatly troublesome and thoughts of Sri Bhagavân appear suicidal.”
When the sâdhak just reaches the stage of prem, he suffers terribly whenever Sri Krishna disappears from his sight. Then we need not mention how much more troublesome it must be for a great anurâgi devotee such as Sri Bilwamangal without Sri Krishna’s darshan!
Srila Chaitanya dâs makes a special point – he has discovered the secret intention of this verse – “We hope that while glancing at His dear one, He will cast a glance at His sheltered ones as well, meaning, us.” 63.
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