A Sweet letter to Dear Naam Prabhu – by H.H. Shachinandan Swami

Radhe  Radhe !

My friend Sadanandi Mataji sent me this very wonderful inspiration –

Gathering Gems:

Peak Experiences and Lessons Learned During My Japa Retreat in America
(Elkins Estate, PA)

The highlight of my own experience during the Japa Retreat was when I could
perceive a glimpse of how the Holy Name connects us with the personality –
the svarupa – of Krsna. “Impersonal” japa feels mechanical, just like
unconscious breathing – and it may turn into something which makes us shy
away from our sacred practice of chanting our fixed number of rounds. It
cannot really satisfy the soul’s deep longing for relationship with the
Lord. But if we do indeed wish to chant japa in that personal connection,
then attachment to the Lord is required. This attachment can be best gained
in the association of devotees who already possess it or eagerly await it.

Speaking of which, we had one 83-year-old devotee – Mother Indrani – with
us, who was severely afflicted by bodily ailments. Towards the end of the
retreat, she passed in and out of consciousness (as she had many times in
recent years). On the last day of the retreat, eyes glowing with enthusiasm,
she shared the following wisdom: “Work on that one relationship while you
can and your bodies are still in working order. Aspire, cry, beg! iIt’s all
that counts.” Her example and words affected me profoundly.

Later, by the grace of Yajna Purusa Prabhu, I heard a powerful
recommendation from Srila Prabhupada on how to chant with full attention:
“Just try to hear yourself chant sincerely.” I’d not encountered it before.
And this simple piece of advice (that almost sounds like the enigmatic
instructions by a Zen Master) has profound depth to it. The potency in this
instruction is that it forcefully catches the mind and quickly brings the
chanter into the sacred inner space of the heart.

To conclude the experience of our Japa retreat 2010 at the Elkins Estate, I
wrote a personal letter to the Holy Name encapsulating my feelings towards
Him. I would like to now offer you some excerpts from this little “love
letter”:

My Dear Nama Prabhu,

Please accept my prostrated obeisances and my sincere attempt to write You a
letter that reaches beyond the confines of my material universe and connects
with You directly, in Your world. I have heard from Your pure servant, my
Srila Prabhupada, all about Your glories, and I believe everything, because
I have surrendered myself to his care. All that I ask of You is to kindly
invite me again into a meaningful relationship with You, so that I may
finally regain my real life of service to You and Your divine associates.

To meet You is truly my only desire and my only project. By Your grace, this
divine prospect is now beginning to take shape, deep within my heart. Please
do not trust or answer the myriad inauthentic voices and messages which my
diverted mind may sometimes send Your way. But rather, please flood my heart
with the unlimited sweetness that gives rise to an almost maddening
attachment for You. And in this way, may You and Srimati Radharani be
glorified supremely with my every breath, for eternal time.

Your helpless, yet hopeful soul, still in this world,
Sacinandana Swami

3 thoughts on “A Sweet letter to Dear Naam Prabhu – by H.H. Shachinandan Swami

  1. Radhe Radhe! I’d recommend every devotee say the contents of this letter (deeply) from the heart everytime he/she starts/resumes japa! If one does, I’m confident the devotee will not confuse Sri Harinama prabhu becoz of past (latent) subtle desires/anarthas in the heart since long… and quickly ascend to what is said in this letter! I’ve tested similarly 5 years ago & have proven results! But later I forgot &…remained too reluctant to do again… The worst thing that happens is when one starts harinama & gets tension free as if there are no anarthas in the heart that’d trouble again. Of course, one can be relaxed thinking He’ll protect us, but when one forgets Krishna (or loses niṣṭhā), it’s ignorance—not trust! The above letter is a good connector to bind the heart with Harinama when one chants! I won’t call it “perfect connector” becoz the lazy mind (especially mine) can learn to ignore virtually any kind of action-pattern over time…
    “Just try to hear yourself chant sincerely.”
    It’s not a difficult job! For the beginners, they can separate themselves (mentally) from the body & see themselves doing harinama & try to listen themselves! Doing anything in this way is a method of doing detached karma-yoga—”becoming the Seer while working”! And in this case it’s detached (niṣkāma) Harinama-japa/chanting! This is good if one is alone but…when not, one needs the mind to be fully present in order to relish the Name. I’ve tried this a number of times but due to my imperfections, I’ve encountered both positive & negative effects! Whatever you do, the essence is to do the Harinama with full mind! If there are any emotions, service, or relish etc. they should be on/for Krishna…otherwise all techniques are useless (& in the nirakar version, it’s nothing more than yogic bliss)!
  2. Radhe Radhe ! YOur comment is very worthy indeed ! also an eye-opener fro me. i am taking this process seriously and beginning to appreciate all suggestions for correct chanting. Thank you V’jeet ! You say – they should be on/for Krishna…otherwise all techniques are useless (& in the nirakar version, it’s nothing more than yogic bliss)! A close relative of mine (i swear its not me) – no matter WHAT the meditation technique is – be it Naam chanting, or vipassana, or chakra – withing a few seconds he feels SO blissful that he enters deep slumber , (hecould give Kumbhakarn a run for his laddoos). The moment the stops chanting, he wakes up.
  3. Radhe Radhe! I’m sure he’s toooo self-realized! But not sure if he’s a devotee! According to Vishwanath Chakravartipada, in deepest stage of sleep (suśhupt-nidrā), one experiences the bliss of nirākār (brahmānand)—for He’s the source (extreme limit, in this case) of all tamoguṇa (which causes bliss in sleep) too! Only for very intense rāgānugiyā meditationists, sleep means floating in the līlā! Thanks for taking it seriously—that inspires me too…to leave reluctance! 🙂 It’s tough to keep away from ignorance though!

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